finally after a month i posted something here... no, i dont feel like it yet. hala hamintori :

for all silence/ i deserve to get/ you give out a huge amount of noise./ i don’t remember if i heard anything/ the moment i was born./ did I have my ears capped?/ who cares!

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for all madness/ that i carry along with me/ you have a large number of ways/ to use them.
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you grow big/ i shrink small/ you become visible/ i fade away.

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there is no balance,/ i know! anita