...hit

i feel way better now :)
as if i was hit by hurricane katrina !!

nothing..., i just experienced a week-long miniature nervous break-down following a 9-month-period of feeling blue.
that's all !!!!
damn you Bisoprolol !!
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btw, who can resist laughing at this?

yet ...

i have made up my mind... not to give up!
i will keep fighting, even more than before.
i will be thick-skinned!!

yet, my heart should cooperate.

i don't believe in any religion...

but, to find out the name of an old cathedral from which i had taken a couple of photos less than two weeks ago, i headed down to saint-catherine this evening and walked for a lil' while round this cathedral...

now, i am wearing a necklace with the crusified jesus as its pendant, that i had received from a christian friend years back !!!

any sign !?

i need to trust.
i have to make a decision.
a tough one:
if it gets worse,
i will give up and take off !?
if it heals,
i will fly up.

but, i dunno what to do...!

not to go without !!

1.
  if i were the minister of education (including post-secondary) in any country, i would have included art and sports as the two obligatory courses in every single semester (not just once during the entire 3-4 years of education) for all, including the mature students.
in art, i would have assigned music as the very essential component of the syllabus, and in sports, swimming.
the remaining components or sub-fields may have been chosen individually by students.
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2.
to shape my life the way i want

is the least thing

life gives me;

do you understand?!

…

but,

humans are getting extinct,

and this is

very scary.          12-aug-05